I'm new to posting to the forum and this was rushed, so I welcome you to point out any obvious improvements to the way I've asked this question/formatted this post in the comments. I'm posting anonymously so I'm kindly requesting that you don't ask me if this is me if you think it's me.
TL;DR
I'm concerned that there are no/very few roles at EA-aligned orgs that don't lead to you feeling like you're working all the time. I feel like I need to be available to community members at all times of the day on everyday of the week as a community builder. Ops people have expressed that they feel they need to be always on call. Many EAs I know work more than 40 hours weekly and some also work on weekends. I want to transition away from what I'm currently doing partially because of this feeling, but it seems like I might not find a role that escapes it.
Ideally, people would answer this question with either:
- Some reassurance that they are in a job role where they don't have to be on call all the time, with a description of the job role
- Reassurance that they are in a role where they could be on call all the time, but it's been possible to set up their work environment with the right boundaries/norms such that they don't feel like they're on call all the time. How? Do you experience any negatives from doing this, e.g. judgement from others, bottlenecking others, etc.?
- Maybe contributions from people who also feel that this is an issue they're facing - this might be an imagined issue on my part, I wonder if there are others who are also worried/experiencing similar?
- Opinions on whether it's normal to expect certain roles to feel demanding in this way
- Maybe some advice
Extra context
What am I concerned about?
My current role would probably be considered a meta community building role. One of the things that has made me update against this being a suitable style of role for me going forward is that (amongst many other things) I have felt quite uniquely worn out by this role.
Don't get me wrong - this is not the worst job I've ever had and I've learnt a lot and feel good about any potential impact I might have had in my role. My problem is that I often feel like I need to be available to community members at all times of the day on everyday of the week. This is not sustainable for me and even if it was, I don't want to live a life centred around and tethered to my job, even if I believe my job is important and impactful.
I understand that for many EAs, working on something that is positive in expectation (and also acknowledging that it's reasonable to expect that more hours spent on something impactful = more impact in many cases) is a fierce driving force and means that a life spent mostly at work feels net good for them. And I also think it's really admirable - I expect that even someone who loves working long hours near daily probably has to work through some resistance to this, too, on some days.
***(INTERLUDE/EDIT: the paragraph above makes it seem like the problem is long work hours. I think I've confused my point slightly but I'm leaving the paragraph in because I still endorse it. To be clear/more accurate, though, I think my problem is more specifically how I've phrased it above: feeling like I'm needed at all times. It's unclear to me (because I have no experience in such a role) if a role where I could do e.g. deep work for long hours would make me as unhappy as my current role has; I'd be interested to test this, tbh.)***
But for me, I don't think this is healthy. Or at least, it doesn't feel net good for me.
Therefore, I've been scrambling to find a new role in something else. I've been quite eager to explore operations because I have enjoyed operations style work in the past. But I was somewhat alarmed reading this recent post about problems in operations at EA orgs. It seems that they also feel like they're at work all the time: "Employers have unrealistic expectations for ops professionals. Ops people are expected to do too much in too little time and always be on call."
I'm really worried that I'll never be able to find an impactful job that doesn't require me to overwork myself. I understand that there are some other fun dynamics at play here - competition for roles, signalling about seriousness/commitment to doing good, social dynamics[1], etc. These dynamics might mean that I'm just not the right kind of person to be working at an EA org altogether - perhaps we want only the people who are dedicated enough to be happy to be on call always? Maybe the capability/desire/willingness to do this is a proxy for "talent"? I see echoes of this sentiment across the forum and I welcome you to express this in a comment if this is your opinion because I'd like to hear more of these opinions (I think people suppress what they actually think about this sometimes - "this" being the suitability of EA and EA org roles for different kinds of people).
What exactly am I looking for reassurance about?
Ideally, people would answer this question with either:
- Some reassurance that they are in a job role where they don't have to be on call all the time, with a description of the job role
- Reassurance that they are in a role where they could be on call all the time, but it's been possible to set up their work environment with the right boundaries/norms such that they don't feel that they're on call all the time. How? Do you experience any negatives from doing this, e.g. judgement from others, bottlenecking others, etc.?
- Maybe contributions from people who also feel that this is an issue they're facing - this might be an imagined issue on my part, I wonder if there are others who are also worried/experiencing related issues?
- Opinions on whether it's normal to expect certain roles to feel demanding in this way
- Maybe some advice
- ^
So the social dynamics bit is really interesting to me. I have (too) many thoughts on this and I'll write some real posts in the near future detailing some observations from doing meta/community building stuff first hand. I wanted to add a footnote to explain: I have a few (actually many on reflection) wonderful EA friends who support me a lot and encourage me to set more boundaries and I have and it does help somewhat. But man, do I feel a strong sense of judgement from some others when I do this. It's hard for me to know whether this is a me-issue or a them-issue or whether there's even an issue here. Regardless, I do think the feeling of judgement from others is actually a fairly common motivator within EA and I'm unsure how I feel about it. Where it's useful I guess it's good. I do sometimes wish that we were a little nicer/more considerate to each other within the community, though.